These past four months I feel as though I have been able to take little short breaths. The first few months of the year I felt as though my family needed me more than ever. It was with pride and love for my family that I stepped up to the plate and tried to do anything and everything for my family. In recent months things have gotten better, but I was scared to breathe again. I was scared because I felt if I did, things would retract and the health of one of my family members that I love more than anything would get worse instead of getting better. I have been so lucky to be surrounded by loved ones whether family or friends. But isn’t it true that in your time of need you realize who is there for you and who isn’t? There are people who aren’t aware of the details of what my immediate family and I have been through yet they still asked how my family and I were doing even though they barely had an idea of what was going on. That was amazing to me; to see genuine care. It was also amazing to see those who have been there for me not be there for me now. Those who knew everything that was going on yet they did not bother to ask how things were going.
You know how tectonic plates shift? Or how water erodes rock? I definitely feel as though the remaining people in my life are here for a reason, whatever that may be; for wisdom, for fun, for love, for support, for a reality check. It’s as though my life experiences have shaped not only my inner self but my outside world as well. Whether it be, a change over time or over night. I have learned that life is too short, we may not make the right decisions but the important part is learning and moving forward from it all. Accomplish as much as you can, appreciate the beauty that surrounds you, be inspired, cherish the happy moments, breathe deep, love completely, do what makes you happy as long as it doesn’t interfere with your health. Take the good, the positives, the hopes, with you. Leave everything else behind.
